I have always felt that I had lots of this, potential. But how do you turn your potential into being? I didn't plan any specific resolutions this year, except to live up to my potential. I want to try to excel at things I've tried and know I am good at. I want to be the person I imagine being. I concluded that my last relationship was full of potential. That's why it ended. Full of unmet potential, I was in love with what "could be." And now its gone. I am not content any longer to let my life be like that. No more longing for what I know I can be!
I can be an artist, I can be a blogger, I can volunteer, I can get my masters, I can be a missionary, I can be healthy.
I know that with God's help my talents can be used to accomplish these potentials. I call them potentials because, they are more than goals. These are already within me. The seed is already planted, its just a matter of blooming my potential into reality.
Now besides potential, I am also really good at excuses. I blame my living arrangements, my financial stability, my emotions, my work schedule. I know its nothing that cannot be easily overcome. Part of the joy of reaching potential is knowing how greatly you worked for it. I am blessed to be living in a fantastic city with free Internet everywhere and if achieving potential is something that matters to me, I'll drive to the Internet if that's what it takes to create a new blog post. Often I find myself dried up of the inspiration to craft. I tell myself, "If only you had a roommate to talk to you'd want to doing something other than watch T.V." Yet, as time goes by, I accomplish more and more by myself and it feels good! My crafting isn't about anyone but me and the One who has given these abilities. Anyway, this is about living up to MY potential, not my roommate's or my boyfriend's.
When I turn around and I look at myself I just have to smirk. In college, I never believed I could do anything alone. I needed my husband. I needed him to work for me. I needed him to protect me. I needed him to help me. I was waiting for God to present me with this man who would do these things for me. Instead he empowered me to do these things for myself. As I had been planning my life, so was He.
You will be hearing more from me. After-all, I'm potentially a brilliant blogger. :)
